And now the hardship part of this story...........

well as you know in this world not many people could accept the truth . 

Truth about life 

Truth about love 

Truth about their emotions 

Practically the truth about 

ANYTHING

HOWEVER  worst case scenario I am the kind of person who love to be straightforward . I sometimes just can' t deal with this round about thing . Going round and round and round pushing here and there . It sucks 

so ya sometime actually not sometimes .....most of the time i act like an idiotic bitch, telling people stuff right in their face . And of course many many people hate it so much. They go like "that bitch can she shut her fucking big mouth up " . but I did not meant any of those things. I always thought telling the truth means you care about them , I thought lying is definitely not a good thing. So the best is to tell the truth. I just wanted the best outcome  on things so whats the point of lying ? Like why lie ? why ? why? WHY?  . 

I was also quite a strong cold hearted girl. When people start telling me my flaws , my bad side , whatever issue just to get back at me , I took it as good thing . I was grateful when the told me about my flaws. I did not felt offended. I genuinely thought they wanted me to change for the better. And when I finally realized that not everyone could accept the ugly truth .........It was too late I had hit a rough patch hard 

I lost many friends because of that. MANY, MANY people hated me. As a result half of my high school years sucked so badly . I went in to a deep depression. I hid from everyone else. I had a bad relationship with my parents . I pushed everyone away. And while looking up on the Internet I figure out why not get skinny, maybe when people saw the new skinny me they would like me more. Because of that I slowly developed an eating disorder . Counting calories was everything , not touching food , exercising excessive on an empty stomach , the feeling of hunger makes me happy, flat stomach and bones were everything 

Thank god every cloud has a sliver lining , I manage to pull myself out from that miserable hell hole, Thing have gone quite well , not all good but quite well . I do hope no one would have to go through tortures like this . However for those who have , it  makes us stronger 

so no worries girl we all will and definitely be strong then ever LEGGO to a new day :))